Fear of the Unknown

Hello, my friends.

Here we are again, with an update that is actually two updates.

I think I stumbled across the reason for my ability to maintain a blog through the many times I have tried. I initially pinned it down to a lack of time to write, but that is a farce. I write almost incessantly. My second thought was that my blogging always lacked purpose. But then I created a blog that was about stuff I did and liked and I still failed to maintain a posting schedule. I think I finally pinned it down to fear.

To be specific, fear of the unknown. As I said, I write almost incessantly. I'm just not comfortable releasing my scribbles for the World Wide Web to read and comment on. That's not such a bad thing in itself. Caution can be a great mediator. But as a creative individual who hopes to make a living in a creative field, a lack of desire to show off what you can do is fatal.

For many, blogs aren't a great deal. But in this day and age, they can become a sort of measuring stick. Of what I haven't entirely figured out, but the indicators are there. I guess it has less to do with having a blog and more to do with a website with clear, concise information about your abilities.

Suffice it to say, there is conflict within about how well I can maintain a blog, and conflict within about not having an active online presence. But like all areas of life, when confronted with a crossroads we must choose a path. Change or fade away, as it were.

So in light of the required decision, I decided that failing to show what I can do is kind of like shooting myself in the foot. Not a good thing. So I am changing.

Would you believe that all this came out of an internal monologue on whether or not I should continue procrastinating uploading some videos to YouTube? Which I ended up uploading, by the way. And here they are: all the projects from my past semester at CSU, and one other which I created over break.

Enjoy, all!

Tommy